This post is written without any research whatsoever, it is simply my opinion about a serious situation that we are dealing with, and also one that has absolutely no answers in the end, so bear with me and understand that even if I am not entirely right about some conditions that all of this is just my opinion and how I see things.
How can you be so happy when around everyone you love, and at the same time be so unhappy with life, how can you be so organized and meticulous in your job and business dealings and at the same time leave everything that you profess to be so important to you completely alone wondering what actually happened, and why did you think that leaving this world behind was the correct answer to the question.
If you feel depressed and sad and have a problem inside your soul making you miserable, Please Find Someone To Talk To! I know some problems seem minor to everyone but you, and you may feel embarrassed to share these feelings, but by God they are important to you! So ask for help because we will understand.
It is better to talk about how you feel and to share your fears than to allow those feelings to make you so hopeless that you think ending it all is the right answer. Ending it all is never the right answer in my opinion, there are therapists out there who are happy to listen to you and suggest solutions, there are also doctors who can prescribe anti depressants that can and will actually help, but most importantly there are friends and family members who love you and simply talking to them can remove a huge weight from your shoulders.
Don't hide your feelings and if you feel depressed please reach out for help rather than hide within yourself. Leaving this world by your own choosing, and leaving your loved ones behind wondering why really sucks, this is a selfish act in my opinion and with this said I'm going to stop and hope any of you who need to get something off your chest will see that the act of sharing your feelings is a lot closer to fixing your problems, than killing yourself will ever be.
If you are feeling suicidal please talk to someone rather than pretending to be happy, our daughter is now a widow with no answers because the selfishness of hiding the pain of some unknown demons inside and ending it all was thought to be the right answer.
Sorry to dump this on you but I just had to say it.